About me & my family..
I'm mixed up about life, someone who's always looking for what's never there!
Since the young age of 5 or six - I always used to ask my mum "Mummy - what are put here for if we have to die" what sort of question is that!! My mum's answer to this depressing and strange question was always the same - "we are put here for a tester, to see what we make of life, if were good and are kind and happy then maybe we might come back" This led me to more thoughts like....... How and when will we come back, but most of all i remember thinking to myself that at this young age i knew i wouldn't want to come back...... Don't be put off by what i'm saying it's just my ramblings of how i saw life and later it explains why i think why i do ......to be cont.......
My Mum & Dad (who I Love, Respect and Adore)
My Mum & Dad - (Chris & Malc) are both very different natures and personalities - you could say like chalk & cheese! and yet the one thing they share is the complete comitment and love to their children - US!!!!
Believe me their job is very very difficult and not as rewarding as you might think, but then again they don't see it like that - this is my opinion of my dear Mum & Dad........
My mum ..........
My Mum, is my friend, my Mum when younger seemed such a bloody "spoil sport" but as I've matured and got a child of my own, I now realize that she was just being a caring, (Very over protective) mum! And to top it all I am just like my Mum!!
She worries ALL THE TIME and cannot switch off - no matter what our ages and how sensible we are she fears for us ALL of the time, I used to resent the way she acted but now I understand her I am so pleased to have such a caring, loving Mum like her around, we seemed to clash (often still do) but now we realize that it's because we have the same nature - as does my son Dan!!
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My Dad.....
My Dad is my Friend, he's also been my holiday partner afew times too!! Much to my disgust people on holiday thought that I was his Girlfriend - after the older man and that he had money... we got alot of remarks before people realised that he was just my Dad and not an older boyfriend with a pocket full of money !!!
He was strict - when I say strict I mean with things like getting our ears pierced, hair dyed etc which funnily enough never seemed to bother my mum! We couldn't win!
He again is a kind, caring Gentleman who "tuts" whenever I swear and colour my hair but he cares for our safety too..Bless him
He is 65 as of June 22nd 2001, He seems to never age, I love him as much today as I did years ago, I want both him and my Mum to stay the ages they are, Why do Parents have to get old?!!!
He has finally finished working for a living and he deserves a good rest with just the odd jobs for us to do! LoL....
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My Dad.....to be cont......................................................
Believe me their job is very very difficult and not as rewarding as you might think, but then again they don't see it like that - this is my opinion of my dear Mum & Dad........
My mum ..........
My Mum, is my friend, my Mum when younger seemed such a bloody "spoil sport" but as I've matured and got a child of my own, I now realize that she was just being a caring, (Very over protective) mum! And to top it all I am just like my Mum!!
She worries ALL THE TIME and cannot switch off - no matter what our ages and how sensible we are she fears for us ALL of the time, I used to resent the way she acted but now I understand her I am so pleased to have such a caring, loving Mum like her around, we seemed to clash (often still do) but now we realize that it's because we have the same nature - as does my son Dan!!
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My Dad.....
My Dad is my Friend, he's also been my holiday partner afew times too!! Much to my disgust people on holiday thought that I was his Girlfriend - after the older man and that he had money... we got alot of remarks before people realised that he was just my Dad and not an older boyfriend with a pocket full of money !!!
He was strict - when I say strict I mean with things like getting our ears pierced, hair dyed etc which funnily enough never seemed to bother my mum! We couldn't win!
He again is a kind, caring Gentleman who "tuts" whenever I swear and colour my hair but he cares for our safety too..Bless him
He is 65 as of June 22nd 2001, He seems to never age, I love him as much today as I did years ago, I want both him and my Mum to stay the ages they are, Why do Parents have to get old?!!!
He has finally finished working for a living and he deserves a good rest with just the odd jobs for us to do! LoL....
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My Dad.....to be cont......................................................
My Sisters and my Brother
(Who also mean the world to me)
(Who also mean the world to me)
To put you in the picture this is my family:
Jul (age 36)
Viv (age 35)
Me (age 32)
Christian (age 29)
We are all very close not just in ages but as a family - I'm sorry to say that part of our family is missing as two and a half years ago my sister Viv died of Cancer - very unexpected, very sad, very traumatic, but at least she's at peace and only sleeping.
I cannot talk to her, she cannot hear
I cannot cuddle her, for she's not here
I can only think of her, being at peace
Just laid dreaming and at ease
I have happy memories, but sometimes Sad,
Well meet again I know i'll be glad
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Jul (age 36)
Viv (age 35)
Me (age 32)
Christian (age 29)
We are all very close not just in ages but as a family - I'm sorry to say that part of our family is missing as two and a half years ago my sister Viv died of Cancer - very unexpected, very sad, very traumatic, but at least she's at peace and only sleeping.
I cannot talk to her, she cannot hear
I cannot cuddle her, for she's not here
I can only think of her, being at peace
Just laid dreaming and at ease
I have happy memories, but sometimes Sad,
Well meet again I know i'll be glad
sorry to be continued.......
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My life seems strange and complicated to others and yet it's not at all.
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